And just like that I caved.
I couldn’t help it.
Every day the thoughts build up uncontrollably.
How can I resist what I’ve had such strong feelings for?
And just like that, I’m saddened.
Because I messed up.
I live with that every day.
Can I simply change who I am to be with who I want?
And there sat a box of masks.
I want to be real.
Every single day I wish to be me.
Can I not be happy how I am?
Uploaded my first Let’s Play! It’s the game Type:Rider which tells the history of writing over the years with different cultures.
The game is fun so far. Loads of reading, so hope you enjoy my terrible reading out loud skills!
Check it out here and subscribe for future Let’s Plays and games about Writing, Reading, Authors, Writers, Books, and more!
Links
Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_mFACZ5rdM
Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCMkCXJrSslJYgafXkJrE9wA
Staring endlessly at the white pages before me,
I am constantly reminded of you.
You were my muse,
probably more so than anyone.
In my new way of thinking,
it’s quite hard to hate you.
I brought it upon myself,
yet it was so easy in the past.
As the block consumes my mind,
I wish for your happiness.
For both our sake,
don’t give in to the evils of the world.
For I know a new muse is out there,
broken and shattered, just like me.
I’ve made a mistake.
I kept tabs on her like I keep a bookmark in a book.
Like coming back to a book, and suddenly the story is completely different.
After our last conversation, it was sure nothing would change
the dreadful outcome of our lives.
The idea of you being happy was all I needed.
But you couldn’t just be happy without me.
You let go of the light and fell right into the darkness of your past.
A rebellion against me, I’m sure.
Like you strike your lighters and matches to drugs,
so will I, to everything we once shared.
A box is nothing more than a box if left unopened.
Even more so when it is reduced to ash.
I’ve started a YouTube channel that is going to be based on vlogging and gaming. The key to this channel is it has a “theme” of sorts. I plan to only do let’s plays on games about writing, reading, writers, books, and authors. The theme can be stretched broadly over those subjects, but my main is goal is to give entertainment to those people into writing, reading, and gaming. No author I know has ever mentioned playing video games as a pass time, probably because writers don’t have that time to.
“Keep writing” are the two words that I see plastered all over writing groups on social medias. The thing is, what if one draws inspiration from not just writing? I, for one, love to read and play video games to gather most of my inspiration. Sometimes, it’s hard to force myself to write when I don’t know where to even go in my stories. So yeah, I may take more time than most writers to finish a piece of work, but at least I have a hell of a good time doing it.
Subscribe to my channel here.
Videos coming soon!
Keep writing, keep reading, and keep gaming!
You can get all three of my eBooks for free for the next 5 whole days! Two are the beginning of my fantasy Shattered Soul series, and the other is a short story. You can get them here!
Shattered Soul Series: Elements of Lightning– The story of Ace Venx, the last Lightning Elementalist ever seen in possibly centuries. His home planet is endangered when his Element’s rivals appear to make sure they kill all who possess the Lightning Element.
Elements of Blood– The story of Xantae Gaspar, a man who has given up his past memories in hopes to live a better future, but little does he know that his past has caused him more trouble than he could have imagined. With the unique Element of Blood, Xantae wants to restore a proper power at the head of the steampunk world of Neasil.
Short Story: Sanctuary of London– A historic fictional tale of Jack the Rippers past.
“I wrote my first two novels with Microsoft Word. Once I saw that there was a Word Processor on Steam, I was sold. I did my research, comparing other reviews and comments about other Word Processors. For the price, it isn’t bad at all. Already getting into my third novel using Nimble Writer and I love it.
Plus, achievements. As a gamer, I love achievements. I think it’s cool to have a goal set in mind, and achievements are there as a reminder of those goals. The words-per-day based achievements were a great idea. Stephen King has been said to write 10k+ words a day, while others I have actually met in person say about 5k+. The achievements show me how far I can get into writing, even if it’s just part time. I would love to see more achievements come out too! Perhaps like use Nimble Writer everyday for a week, or something.
Regardless, it’s much better than Microsoft Word, in my opinion.”
Add me on Steam here.
I have discovered apparently that Microsoft Word is the “worst” word processor to use for writing. Many articles state that fact. For the longest time I’ve been using word, for my first two novels, on my 4 year old laptop. My gaming computer didn’t have a decent Word so I figured my laptop could be my writing computer.
One day, on my gaming computer, I was looking through the Steam sales. I immediately saw the word “writer” and my eyes fixated on it. Nimble Writer. A Steam based word processor. I thought to myself, “Well, I’m in Steam most of the time anyways.”
Nimble comes with Steam Acheivements(always a plus in my book) and is distraction free. You can open all your documents from within the program, no extra windows needed. You can even export your files/stories to wordpress and others. I know other word processors have that cabability but Nimble is cheap, and in Steam. I think it’s a perfect processor for Steam users who are also writers.
I’ve messed about in the program a few times and love it. It’s simple to use.
I have started to add book lore to my site, here at brandanchapman.wordpress.com! You can now read more in depth about what my books are about and see the lore in the universe I like to call the Elemental Chaos. Shattered Soul novels are just a part of what should come of Elemental Chaos.
Check it out here: https://brandanchapman.wordpress.com/elementalists-lore/
Soon to come are lore of characters and planets!
I made a prison on The Escapists map editor for the Steam Workshop! It’s based on the prison from my first novel, Elements of Lightning, as much as I could make it.
“A Protector enforced facility recently taken over by one of the President’s advisors, Ragnosk Lokar. It’s a place where the Elementalists and Elementless go when they get out of line. It wasn’t originally designed to be a compound, but once Ragnosk took over, it’s almost like he needed to keep something out, instead of in.”
Get the novel here in paperback and ebook: http://amzn.to/1NAHgSX
Brandan Chapman 